so i started a new medication about a month ago. my friend said, "you know that's going to make you gain weight, right?" no, i don't KNOW it's going to make me gain weight. everyone is different. some people have side effects, some people don't. surely i would be one of the people who don't gain weight.
well, i gained weight. like 5 pounds, which shows itself on me like a big tatoo across my face. at first, it made me feel completley terrible. i felt like a failure for some reason, and i hadn't even done anything wrong. i was simply taking the medicine as prescribed.
i was struggling a little bit with the fact that i had these extra pounds that i resented like crazy, but at the same time, i was feeling SOOOO good. better than i had in years. nothing over the top, just feeling very steady and happy.
finally, it occurred to me that my happiness doesn't have to be attached to how much i weigh. 5 more pounds doesn't make me a bad person. in fact, i'm a better person than i've been in a long time.
so screw you, extra padding. i WIN!!!!!!!!!!!